Can't sleep...

I've been up since approximately 230am.  It's now going for 6am.  No idea why I'm awake.  I didn't take my sleeping pill because I was drinking cider and a little champagne while watching the Giants beat the Patriots (YEAH BIG BLUE!!) and I didn't want to wind up like Demi or something...But I went to bed and fell asleep almost instantly. Then something woke me, don't know what.  And, here I sit.
Sunday, well, it wasn't a good day.  I felt sad and down, most of all, alone.  You can't take words back.  When you say things in anger or just out of sheer stupidity you can't take them back.  I guess I was also feeling guilty of things I said when I was feeling down.  I just don't have a lot of patience lately.  Just ask my husband and son.  They can tell you.  I'm trying but I still feel like I am stuck in the hole.  It is just taking so long and it is so hard to dig out of this.  Situations that seem to knock me back down in the hole or make it seem I've fallen deeper.  I know it will take awhile until I am back to my normal self ---HAHAHA  --actually there is no normal me!  Even when I am at my happiest and healthiest I am a bit NOT normal still but in a good way ; ).....
Yes, Sunday sucked aside from  the football game and seeing my sweet niece. Got some mixed news I wasn't expecting to hear.  I felt jittery all day like something, somewhere was wrong.   Not sure how to describe it.  I had that little bit of a feeling that my head was not attached to my body again.  It wasn't as severe as it was before.   It was just there a little bit.  To sum it up - very anxious!  High Anxiety!

 It is supposed to be a couple beautiful days here so that means sun and walks.  I'm hoping that helps me out in this week.  I think I might need a little help this week from some natural forces -- Mama Nature.