Challenges...

The challenging year of 2011 continues into 2012.  If I could tell you all of the things that have happened over the past 2 years related to family and/or friends - you would be astonished!  I guess that is why I am on so many meds... LOL!  There are a few new challenges related directly to me but I am hoping one is a phase and the other turns out to be nothing.  I am hoping for the best possible outcomes - that is something very positive and a little different for me.  I am learning to LET GO of the other stuff I can't control with lots of help and advice from friends and family.  I am just realizing I can't do anything about these things and they do not affect me directly.

That brings me to my vent today.  Something that does affect me (I sure hope I am using affect correctly. That was my last writing lesson - if some English major is reading this, let me know).

I had to do a bland diet yesterday and today I am on clear liquids - NO SOLID FOOD! UGH!!   Tomorrow I will have my second attempt at a colonoscopy (yep -- yuck).  I am hungry already and could go for some french toast and turkey sausage with some chocolate milk but that will have to wait for another day. I have some well, you know, problems so I have to do a 2 day "cleanse" - that is what I am calling it because that is what the celebrities call these things.  The first time I had it was a failure because I was so well, you know, that I did not have a clean enough colon (hope no one is grossed out I am talking about this but sooner or later YOU will have to have one too - 50 is not too far down the road for some of us).    My doctor recommended a 2 day cleanse - a year and a half ago.   Yes, I was chicken to reschedule because it is not fun!  So here I am trying it again and praying it works tomorrow.  The prep is not the most pleasant thing, but I can drink all the sprite I want to today! Oh, and eat all the beef broth I want too!  (OK, beef broth isn't that exciting).

So, my body is making all these weird noises but I am feeling a little confident that this time it will work.  I just want a normal digestive system is that so wrong?  Most everything else about me is abnormal so how about this one little thing?  Hopefully the doctor will figure out what is making me, well, you know.

Thanks for reading if you continued to.  While I was writing earlier I got a speck of good news so something positive happened on this Leap Day...