Did you ever have one of those days when you know you should have just pulled the covers up over your head and stayed in bed? Doesn't matter what you have planned or who you may see, you just should stay in bed. I had one of those today. I just felt like "Nothing is going to go as planned, it's dark and dreary, I have nothing pressing, I need to stay in bed today". It's a little on the depressing side, I know, but it was needed. I didn't feel the greatest physically and I slept like crap, so that was not good signs either. Then, some stuff happened and it made me feel worse. I just went back to bed then. I just wanted to be left alone.
With these days, when I just hide from the world, there is a terrible feeling of guilt afterward. I feel guilty for not being productive, for not exercising, for not being a social human being (I'm not that great at that anyway with my shy personality). So, I deal with my guilt all day and then at some point decide that the next day I need to get up off my ass and get moving. That is what I am going to do tomorrow then, get my ass up and get moving. Two days in bed this week are enough. Anymore and I will be down that road of doom again. I don't want to head down that road again, especially not now. I will pick myself up and brush my shoulders off (ladies iz pimps too ; ). I will not let this bring me down.
Yes, this is serving as a pep talk to myself. I hope maybe it will serve as one to you if you''re having one of those days or weeks.
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