'Cause I gotta have faith...??!!

I am trying to rediscover my faith.  I've been praying a lot lately -- for me and for others.  My son is taking religion classes and may attend private catholic school next year so I want to help him understand that I believe in God too and need his help too.  He is also learning though, not everyone believes the same things or in the same God or even some people believe in no God and it is all ok to do.  I never had a lot of that growing up.  I knew there were different religions but I think it was beat into my head thru school and family that Catholic is best!! :)

I discovered later that no religions are the best.  I follow the teaching of Christ but I also like to hear what Buddha says as well as the Dalai Lama.  Let's also not forget that Judaism is the roots of Christianity.   I love that I am a Scorpio and have its traits abundant in me, I just saw a psychic and I think nature has a lot to teach us too.  

I went to mass on Saturday.  We chose to go to the 530pm service.  It was being celebrated by a Franciscan priest.  Honestly, I hadn't been to church since Christmas and before that probably summertime?  Yep, not a good churchgoer  Anyways, the first reading was Job.  Fitting.  Second reading was about Jesus helping Simon Peter's mother and how her "sickness" was seen by others as strange and a weakness.  The Psalm and Gospel also had hopeless, depressed themes.  Hmmmmm.  Then came the priests homily or sermon.  It was perfect for me.   Talked about depression, hopelessness, anhedonia.  It was like "I was meant to be at this particular mass!"  I thanked the priest after.  He was very nice.  My church is a little on the more progressive side of catholic churches, at least that is my opinion.  Yes, they still follow the teachings they should and preach what they have to but they seem to leave a little room for discussion.  They definitely DON'T try to shove it down your throat that all they say it true and if you don't believe it you will go to hell.  That is how I sometimes felt growing up in catholic school and going to church and even with some family, my stricter elders in particular.  

So I felt a little fate playing there.  We hadn't all been to church as a family in a while, I need some spiritual peace and the readings, songs and sermon were all on things directly and deeply affecting my family and me.  Go figure.