Nervous, shaken, upset, scared, anxious, want to run, want to seek comfort, want to sleep, want to stay up. This is how I feel. This is what is usually the beginning of a depressive episode. I am so scared where it will take me. It is the wrong week to do this. I have to take care of my son. This is not what I need right now.
I just need to calm down get my head together. This is so not fair. All that is happening now is not fair. It is driving me to the edge and I don't know how long I can keep it together. I use up all of my strength sometimes just trying to keep it together. I wonder if that is why I sleep so long somedays and am so tired and other days it almost feels like I am storing up energy in case I need it.
Does anyone else ever feel like this?
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